So this started last Saturday, moving day for my sister (where she provided pizza) and then Mother's Day where there were chips, soda, cookies, pizza and desert. I am proud to say I ate clean both days! I attribute that to my high level of motivation, planning, and telling my family I started this challenge. I always do well at the start of a challenge (I would guess most people do). I have also learned to plan ahead, and although that doesn't guarantee success, it definitely increases my chances. But telling my family was key, if I hadn't told them, I could have slipped up with no one knowing, but telling them forced me to hold myself accountable.
I don't think you need or want a play by play of each day so rather I will sum up the highs and lows of the week.
- Most days went pretty well, in fact I stuck to it 6 out of the 7 days.
- When I had cravings or urges to treat myself with I combatted that with reminders and self-talk (I do that A LOT) that the feelings I was having were emotions not hunger, and that food would not satisfy those feelings, as well as my "why."
- Almonds...I eat basically the same thing everyday, but I was still feeling hungry after my lunch, this week I added almonds to my lunch, and that hit that spot!
- The urges to eat when I feel stressed, frustrated, angry, etc.
- Momentary stress over think of 6 week timeline
- Friday! Ugh....Friday.
I was 6 for 6 until Friday (today) and it started with sample cookies. Ok let me try to explain quickly...I am a high school teacher and seniors have to present senior projects, it's their big finale to high school that they spend months working on. So this sweet kid who was super nervous did his presentation about being a pastry chef and brought in samples. He asked us to try some of his samples...I couldn't turn him down. I only had two small cookies...but that is all it took. Two small cookies took me down today!
Within minutes after eating those tiny cookies (which were amazing!) I started craving more. I started thinking of all my favorite junk foods, and how I could get them and eat them ASAP.
If I don’t indulge at all, it’s easy to resist the temptations around me. But I am finding that it is REALLY hard for me to be that person who just eats one and is satisfied. Once I have one treat, that craving takes over and I want to just keep eating and eating and eating. There was also pizza at school today, and I ate some :( Had I not had the cookies, I think I would have been able to resist the pizza, but I went against my plan and my defensives were weakened, and I caved.
Why does eating two small cookies send me over the edge so quickly, why do those cravings and urges come slamming back to the forefront of my mind so easily?
Does anyone have any suggestions, tips, secrets? Food seems to have this hold on me and I need to learn how to defeat it! Help!