I have always been overweight, for as long as I can remember. I have always loved to eat. Food has been a comfort for me since I was a kid. Not only a comfort, but also a reward. Food is what you turn to when you are happy, sad, bored, celebrating, depressed, stressed....name the emotion and food is the number one friend to them all.
Below are pictures from when I was a kid, I was never drastically overweight, but I have been chubby my entire life, I don't even really know what it is like to be skinny, sometimes I think that is why I have never made it, I have never been skinny (or at least my vision of it for me), and so it is hard for me to believe that I can really get there. I have been close at times, but never made it all the way, I always let food win, well, junk food at least.
Funny story, when I figured out that when I cook the food my boyfriend likes to eat, I eat that food too, and that negatively (or positively??) affects my weight. So I stopped cooking for him and started making my own separate meals. He must have not minded too much because he married me, and to this day I rarely cook for him (which people think is crazy, but now that is more attributed to us eating at different times). If I cook, I only make him meals that are healthy. I still don't eat as consistently healthy as I should, but I no longer cook meals of pasta roni and meat with a side of bread and no veggies.
This won't be my last "after" picture. I cannot wait to put up my before and after once I finally get to my goal weight. Which to be honest, I don't really know what my goal weight is, mostly because I have never weighed it. I think it's near 130, but really what I want is to be able to wear a swimsuit with confidence, something I have never done my entire life. I will post that picture when I get there :)
STOP DREAMING, START ACHIEVING!!!